Do you know how many people suffer from bipolar?
I don't! All I know is that my son does! He is 6 years old and he has been showing signs from the age 3. Tonight when I was putting him to bed he said he was sorry for not listening to me this morning, then he started crying and telling me that "his brain" makes him do things he doesn't want to do, like be angry and not listen. He said "mom, I wish I didn't have this brain, I wish I wasn't born with it".
What can I possibly say to him to make him feel better? I told him that he has a very special brain and that sometimes he is happy, smiling and smart and wonderful and his anger will never take that part away. He said 'mom, will I ever outgrow this?" and I had to tell him, I didn't know.
I don't know...will he ever out grow this?
What will time make of an angry brain?
I don't have a clue but I will be right here next to him, finding out!
Love,
Michelle
Addiction
By Michelle Berardo Klear
Addiction
You seep into my veins
Take over my brain waves
Take me on a trip I am willing to go
I know I should stay home.
I run wild
All over you
Cannot wait to hear from you
Your words, all I have
They seep inside my veins
Take over my brain waves.
I start to fantasize about our time together
Your world colliding with mine
Our souls entwined
On a dance of a lifetime.
The end is near
I am getting too close here
I can feel the pain
It will not be long
You will shut me off.
Addiction again
I will feel the rejection
I can’t live with out
You seep into my veins
Take over my brain waves.
3/07
Hello,
Have you ever been so excited about your future? Sure that tomorrow will be better than today? I am in a great place but I am taking steps to make sure that my future is even better. I am going back to school. I do have some questions...does it matter where a master's is completed? Is a local college better then an on-line university? I wish I knew what I trusted more. I know it will take me 3 years of school and 2 years of internship before I can become a licensed counselor. I am sure that whatever I choose will be the right choice for me!
Love,
Michelle
Today I am finding a new path to travel. It is exciting to see the possibilities in front of me...do you walk in the light or do you keep to the shadows? I am looking for sunshine!
Lilly’s prayer
Still a little girl jumping robe and running free
Having to move a way
Death came and played an ugly joke
Her Dad will not be coming home.
How does a child mourn?
How do you explain?
That life is a gift that expired today.
Innocence gone in an instant
Life now a mystery
Shattered dreams
What will be?
Lilly you will see
In time, it will make sense
You will find a way to cope
You will live again with hope
That is the cycle of life.
Believe Lilly, You will be free
From the pain, that is holding you back
Your friends are here to show they care.
That is our Lilly’s prayer.
4/14/08
This is for a little girl in my neighborhood. She is too young to lose a parent to death. I now have to explain to my kids why her dad died, why she has to move and why I am crying.
If I could be a Greek Goddess, I think I would like to be the goddess of sunshine! Something about the rays of light and energy from the sun that makes me feel beautiful!! I would love to spread that kind of joy and love to everyone...feel good energy for the soul!
What kind of god or goddess would you like to be?
Love,
Michelle
I believe that you can have what you want...if you know what it is and you can ask for it!
Dare to ask for it!
Love,
Michelle
A Mother’s Cry
By Michelle Klear
A mother’s cry is like nothing else on earth
Silent tears that run along like a river
Her worries buried deep for no one to see.
The burden of understanding
The difficulties of his life lived in moments out of control.
When to step in and break the cycle, step back and let him live.
A mother cannot win a battle
She must fight in vain for a mental illness that
Rages out of range.
What can help her carry the burden of worries?
This mother’s love is never ending
Just like her pain, she carries it with pride
Knowing without it, they would not survive.
A mother’s cry is like nothing else on earth
The most beautiful sound not heard
Cherished moments left in the sun to dry.
4/2/08
In a world full of adults lives a kid with a soul and mind that is beyond his understanding. That is my son Jackson who suffers from biplolar disorder. At the age of 6 he is teaching me how to be compassionate and understanding. He is showing me what it means to have a brain that is emotional and exceptional. I am a lucky Mother.
We are on
By Michelle Berardo Klear
We are on
Fire
Our hearts speak
Pure desire
We are on
Fire
Words we say
Thoughts that come
Never go away.
We are on
Fire
The spirit you seek
Seen in my eyes
Tears that love
Cannot disguise.
We are on
Fire
Your star in the sky
Burns brighter by the hour
Our love forever a meteor shower
We are on fire.
1/16/08
