9 posts from April 2008

Do you know how many people suffer from bipolar?

I don't!  All I know is that my son does! He is 6 years old and he has been showing signs from the age 3.  Tonight when I was putting him to bed he said he was sorry for not listening to me this morning, then he started crying and telling me that "his brain" makes him do things he doesn't want to do, like be angry and not listen. He said "mom, I wish I didn't have this brain, I wish I wasn't born with it".

What can I possibly say to him to make him feel better? I told him that he has a very special brain and that sometimes he is happy, smiling and smart and wonderful and his anger will never take that part away. He said 'mom, will I ever outgrow this?" and I had to tell him, I didn't know.

I don't know...will he ever out grow this?

What will time make of an angry brain?

I don't have a clue but I will be right here next to him, finding out!

Love,

Michelle

Addiction

By Michelle Berardo Klear

Addiction

You seep into my veins

Take over my brain waves

Take me on a trip I am willing to go

I know I should stay home.

I run wild

All over you

Cannot wait to hear from you

Your words, all I have

They seep inside my veins

Take over my brain waves.

I start to fantasize about our time together

Your world colliding with mine

Our souls entwined

On a dance of a lifetime.

The end is near

I am getting too close here

I can feel the pain

It will not be long

You will shut me off.

Addiction again

I will feel the rejection

I can’t live with out

You seep into my veins

Take over my brain waves.

3/07

Hello,

Have you ever been so excited about your future? Sure that tomorrow will be better than today? I am in a great place but I am taking steps to make sure that my future is even better. I am going back to school. I do have some questions...does it matter where a master's is completed? Is a local college better then an on-line university? I wish I knew what I trusted more. I know it will take me 3 years of school and 2 years of internship before I can become a licensed counselor. I am sure that whatever I choose will be the right choice for me! 

Love,

Michelle

Today I am finding a new path to travel. It is exciting to see the possibilities in front of me...do you walk in the light or do you keep to the shadows?  I am looking for sunshine!

Lilly’s prayer

Still a little girl jumping robe and running free

Having to move a way

Death came and played an ugly joke

Her Dad will not be coming home.

How does a child mourn?

How do you explain?

That life is a gift that expired today.

Innocence gone in an instant

Life now a mystery

Shattered dreams

What will be?

Lilly you will see

In time, it will make sense

You will find a way to cope

You will live again with hope

That is the cycle of life.

Believe Lilly, You will be free

From the pain, that is holding you back

Your friends are here to show they care.

That is our Lilly’s prayer.

4/14/08

 This is for a little girl in my neighborhood. She is too young to lose a parent to death. I now have to explain to my kids why her dad died, why she has to move and why I am crying.

If I could be a Greek Goddess, I think I would like to be the goddess of sunshine!  Something about the rays of light and energy from the sun that makes me feel beautiful!!  I would love to spread that kind of joy and love to everyone...feel good energy for the soul!

What kind of god or goddess would you like to be?

Love,

Michelle

I believe that you can have what you want...if you know what it is and you can ask for it!

Dare to ask for it!

Love,

Michelle

A Mother’s Cry

By Michelle Klear

A mother’s cry is like nothing else on earth

Silent tears that run along like a river

Her worries buried deep for no one to see.

The burden of understanding

The difficulties of his life lived in moments out of control.

When to step in and break the cycle, step back and let him live.

A mother cannot win a battle

She must fight in vain for a mental illness that

Rages out of range.

What can help her carry the burden of worries?

This mother’s love is never ending

Just like her pain, she carries it with pride

Knowing without it, they would not survive.

A mother’s cry is like nothing else on earth

The most beautiful sound not heard

Cherished moments left in the sun to dry.

4/2/08

In a world full of adults lives a kid with a soul and mind that is beyond his understanding.  That is my son Jackson who suffers from biplolar disorder.  At the age of 6 he is teaching me how to be compassionate and understanding. He is showing me what it means to have a brain that is emotional and exceptional. I am a lucky Mother.

We are on

By Michelle Berardo Klear

We are on

Fire

Our hearts speak

Pure desire

We are on

Fire

Words we say

Thoughts that come

Never go away.

We are on

Fire

The spirit you seek

Seen in my eyes

Tears that love

Cannot disguise.

We are on

Fire

Your star in the sky

Burns brighter by the hour

Our love forever a meteor shower

We are on fire.

1/16/08